Phenomenal Woman…Maya Angelou

When I was in 10th grade I decided I would join my school’s annual pageant. We had to perform a “talent” as one of the elements to be judged during the competition. I racked my brain at first trying to figure out what I would do. Finally I decided I would do a poem….a skit. It was befitting. See, even then I loved to write and I loved poetry. Instead of writing my own I decided to present one of my favorite poems by the wonderful Maya Angelou…..”Phenomenal Woman”. The words alone exuded exactly what I needed to convey. I didn’t win that pageant, but to be able to share such powerful words to people who might not have ever heard of Maya Angelou was a winner in my book!
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“Phenomenal Woman, That’s you.”

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Phenomenal Woman

Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I’m not cute or built to suit a fashion model’s size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I’m telling lies.
I say,
It’s in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I’m a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That’s me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It’s the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I’m a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That’s me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can’t touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can’t see.
I say,
It’s in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I’m a woman

Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That’s me.

Now you understand
Just why my head’s not bowed.
I don’t shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It’s in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
‘Cause I’m a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That’s me.

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Confessions of a Writer…..Through the looking Glass

Traveling down the trail of life
Destination unknown
Rough patches heavily worn
The looking lens bear no resemblances
The tattered mirror reveals the emptiness
Dare I nudge the conflicted connection
Wait…..there lies no reflection
Swaying between the fact and fiction
Teetering without a mission
Where this train stops, there ain’t no telling
Mind Battered and wounded
Wrapped up tightly it stays bounded
Forceful grin to he who looks within
The only thing that captivates me is the desire to win
Constraints to stay sane
To mask the constant pain
The struggling tributes that stain
The mere existence brings rain
Trudging through the mud
How did it flood?
Walking blindly through the obstacles
Feeling bare backed without a cover
Quick…..somebody hide me
Daring to break free
Hidden solutions taunt me often
Thoughts of the internal fire outweigh the sin
11:13 means more than what the clock reads
It’s life over death
The ending to begin
The trump card to all that fell behind
Learning and relating
Relating to learn
Saying yes to the task
That had already begun
And as rambled as this all seemed
Somehow, somebody just might believe the dream
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Making 2014 count by…….Growth

I came upon an awesome blog post at
littlebabygarvin.blogspot.com where she and several fellow bloggers are doing an awesome project where other bloggers will “link up” and share how we all plan on #making2014count. I think this is beyond awesome and a great way to make 2014 an unforgettable year along with meeting new friends and encouraging each other through our journeys! As I have said countless times before, the blogging world is a community of mounds of very talented and creative individuals with plentiful things to share. Since joining this world, I have gained an array of wonderful  friends that I cherish and adore.

Ironically before stumbling across this post, I had just written a post entitled “When Peace Finds You“. In that post I talk about how trying 2013 was and how I spent the majority of the year with this fascination about trees and I couldn’t pin point exactly why until I began a corporate fast. And that’s where I heard the word GROWTH. It meant growth….I was experiencing growth.
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I plan to make 2014 count by continuing to grow. Growth in every area of my life. Individually, Collectively, Spiritually, Mentally, Physically, Financially, etc. I plan to grow as a person, in my marriage, on my job, in my business, as a friend, sister, daughter, auntie, and eventually as a mother.

2014 will be a prosperous year and I plan to make it count. In 2014 I plan to fully live, love, and enjoy my journey. No more coasting as I did in 2013.

Thank you littlebabygarvin.blogspot.com for this great project!

Here’s to growing in 2014……

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Stayed tuned for a post on “13 things I learned in 2013″…..

A Valentine’s Story: A Grandfather’s Love

valentines-day-poems-for-parents-from-kids-i12Growing up I was blessed to have my maternal grandparents in my life…they raised my siblings and I.  So, I have so many fond memories and the joys of living with my grandparents.  My grandfather was an awesome man.  He showered me and my sister with so much love.  He was the perfect example of the type of love you should receive from a man.  He was the first man who ever loved me and showed it.  There was not a day that he did not tell me that he loved me and that I was beautiful.  He promoted love 365 days out of a year, so on Valentine’s Day he went out of his way to shower my sister and I with cards, candy, teddy bears, etc.  Do you understand why he felt it was important for him to do this?  His whole mantra was for us to understand that love begins at home and to help us develop self-love first.   So when we went out into the world we’d appreciate acts of love because we deserved it.  And  because we love ourselves first, we aren’t disappointed if we don’t receive a Valentine’s gift on Valentine’s Day because our Valentine’s Day is everyday!  My grandfather is no longer here physically, but I am often reminded of his love everyday and although I won’t get that extra special love he displayed on Valentine’s Day by him, I still hold dear to the memories I shared with him.  Happy Valentine’s Day Granddaddy! May you Rest in Peace!

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~Happy Valentine’s Day from Lovebug’s World to yours!

Valentine’s Day is the National “Love Day”.  Tons of companies make so much money off of this one day.  Although love should be spread everyday, this day is still highly emphasized.  It’s all about the commercial appeal, so it’s easy to get sucked in. Valentine’s Day every year spark so many emotions good or bad usually evoked depending on if you are in a relationship or not.  And sadly, depending on if you “receive” something or not.  Which usually puts people in a not so good mood from the wives, husbands, girlfriends, boyfriends, the single people, and even the side people(I have been seeing topics on this more and more as today was fast approaching, so this is a whole other topic). My friendly advice is whether you are with someone or not remember that love starts within.  If you are with someone show that person you love them the other 364 days as well. Love isn’t always about showering someone with gifts.  If you are not with someone love isn’t always about a guy or a girl, it could be your Child, your Brother, Sister, Mother, Father, Grandparents, and even friends.  So, see you are loved in all the most tangible ways possible from more people than you could ever imagine.  So, in the spirit of “Love Day” let’s  spread a little love by giving someone a smile, a hug, and even a “Happy Valentine’s Day!”

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Dear You…..

Dear You,

Hello there…just where have you been? I thought I buried you. So why must you resurface again as if you are needed. It took awhile to get here and once again I have to face you. I’m not looking forward to this trip. Engulfed in a sea of what you use to be. Triggered by the need to put you behind me. Familiarity dares me to welcome you. Stubbornness to be strong holds true. I’ve built walls and put up guards just to avoid you because you were all a thing of the past and although at times it creeps back up lightening fast I want to hide so it doesn’t find me. But, somehow circumstances always present me with the challenge to accept it or decline and kindly walk away. So, as I stare back at what you were I can’t help but to smile. You just don’t do it for me anymore and since we are no longer one the best gift I could have ever given you I present to you with pleasure and that’s to watch me walk away…..again!

Signed,
Me

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Friendship

Friendships are born at that moment when one says to another: “What! You, too!  I thought I was the only one!” ~ C.S Lewis

I have known these lovely ladies for quite some time.  Three since birth, one since 1st grade(although she claims it was 4th), another since 5th grade, and one since 2003.  I take friendship seriously and everyone doesn’t make the cut of getting the title of “Best Friends”, but I can truly say these are my Best Friends!  There are 3 others missing from this pic(one girl and 2 guys), but they are apart of my inner circle as well.  I have treasured all of  the tears, laughter, but most importantly….Memories!!!  And boy have we created plenty of memories!!!

Inspirational, Who me? Couldn’t be!

I have never thought of myself as being inspirational until I began my blogging journey. I have always been opinionated and because of it I’ve been accused of being a “know it all”, bossy, lacking empathy, no emotion, mean, and the list could go on. The picture I am painting doesn’t sound too appealing, huh? It sounds like a monster, right?  My argument has been, Yes…I am bossy, but I would never ask someone to do something I am not willing to do myself. Yes, I do feel like I know a lot of things, but I’ve never claimed to know everything. That would be insane! Yes, I have struggled with not having empathy. I don’t think I lack it completely, but I deem it where i feel it is necessarily suited. And usually it is not where the accuser feels it should be.  Crazy thing is….for everyone that has called me anything other than my name, usually has to come back and apologize and tell me, “Hey, you were right!”  But, I don’t gloat, I just keep doing what I believe is right and because I have the biggest heart, I will always still do my part and being exactly what God has placed me here to do and that’s be helpful! I do empathize with people and situations, but what I don’t tolerate are excuses. I believe whole heartedly in being who or what you say you are and doing exactly what you say you will. I believe in action. If you say it, then do it. There is nothing more disappointing than to be told something that is not carried out by action.

Lately, along with blogging, I have started back writing in my journal.  I have seriously been trying to reevaluate myself….my life period.  I believe I live up to what I speak, but I have been seeking the help from God to make me over.  To make me fit in his eyes so that with anything I put out, it be from God.  I am human, so I do make mistakes.  So, I do ask for forgiveness when I do fall short.  I am so thankful for how far God has brought me!!  I will continue to seek guidance and to live out exactly what He has placed me here to do.  And in that process, a few have deemed me as inspirational and even though I didn’t think I could wear that hat, I will accept it. There are those before me that have inspired me and there are people who are continuously inspiring me as I type these words, so If I can give back an ounce of what I have been given, then it makes my heart and soul smile.  So, for every negative thing that I have been called, there is a piece of positivity lying within.

Ironically, I have been sitting on this posting for a few weeks, but today as I was catching up on some of my fellow bloggers posts, I came across my favorite bloggers site ispygod and exactly what I had been feeling, she had already wrote about, so it gave me the push to finish this posting.  Writers block always come at the wrong time!!!  Lol!  So instead of scraping it, I decided to share it!!

~Lovebug

A Father’s Love

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A Father’s Love stays with you even after you’ve grown from a little girl into a woman. That’s why it is so important to love our daughters because Father’s set the bar for every man we will ever encounter. I was blessed to have my Father in my life and my Grandfather, so on this day….Let’s honor all the wonderful Fathers out there!

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My Father and I at my wedding!

Open Your Eyes

I know we tend to use the term “everything happens for a reason” so loosely, but I think the average person doesn’t really take the time to fully understand the reason or can even identify what the reason really is.

In every situation whether it is good or bad, I always try to figure out what role I played in it, what I did right, wrong, or what I could have done better. Some people call it anal, I call it being thorough so that I can not make the same mistake twice. If it was something good, I want to figure out how to be even better the next time.

In life we go through things to learn from it. If we never experienced anything how can we grow?! The decisions we make in life determine how our life exists. We have a right to every decision we make, but the consequences are far from our reach. We don’t control it…God does! We have to make better decisions and to do that, it first starts with building a better relationship with God.

Before we make decisions, we should be consulting with God. I don’t mean telling him what you are going to do, but asking to see if it aligns with what he has planned for us.

If you find yourself in the same situations over and over again then it’s time to try something different. Change is inevitable, but can be so beneficial. It can be the next best thing in your spiritual growth.

What are you going to differently? What works for you?

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Life Rhythms

This past week or so has been a very trying time for me.  I was just feeling like life is just like a roller coaster…the tracks are built for your cart to go up and down and when you are on the ride while it is down, you anticipate the going up!  It has to go up and as slow as it may take it to go up, you know it is going to go up.  These very words I had to give to a blogger friend today, but as I was typing it for them I realized I needed it for myself as well!  Life is just funny like that.  We go through all of these life rhythms and even though you feel like you might be off beat, there is always that point when you eventually have rhythm.  It’s at these times where your faith has to be in tact.  I was reading one of my favorite blogs ispygod today and she gave me that boost I needed to get back on track.  As I was reading her post, all I could think about was Matthew 17:20….having Faith as small as a Mustard Seed.

  Keeping the Faith, Believing, Prayer and Knowing that we can increase any and all areas of our lives with just that simple formula.  Prior to writing this post, I decided to reread one of my many journals.  I would be lost without a journal….a pen/pencil and paper is like my therapeutic realm.  I collect journals not only because I love to write, but because I have to write; my thoughts, feelings, conversations with God, songs, poems, short stories, things to do lists(that’s another post within itself) ;-) or just to doodle is just how serious it is for me to have a journal handy at all times.  As I was reading one of my journals, I came across a Journal Entry dated October 18, 2009:

Dear God,

These days my mind has been so full!  There is just so much that is swarming around in my head and it is not any bad things.  Today as I was getting my brakes done, the guy that was fixing them said to me, “I don’t hear any music, but you are surely rocking back and forth and that tells me that you are a happy person!”  That made me feel extra good and put an even bigger smile on my face.  I am happy, happier than I have ever been in a long time.  I feel so at peace.  It almost feels like I have this big secret that only you and I know about.  I just want to scream and shout and just get my praise on and tell everyone I come across just how awesome you are.  I was so upset that I couldn’t go to church today, but unfortunately my brakes gave out as I was pulling out of the driveway.  So, I know there is a reason for that protection.  Lord please continue to guide me and help me to make sound decisions spiritually, mentally, financially, and even physically.  I thank you for your grace and mercy and patience.  I thank you for all the blessings that you have blessed me with and will bless me with.  All I ask is to be blessed to be a blessing to others.  Thank you for all of my family, loved ones, and friends!  I love you!

In Jesus Name,

Amen!

So, you see Life is full of rhythm and even when we get off beat, we can always find our way back and get right back in tune with the beat!!  Reading my journal entry from 2 years ago really made me smile because it is so me to always rock back and forth because there is always music in my head.  I truly fit the phrase, “Dancing to the beat of my own Drum.”  It’s almost as if I am having a special dance with God because he is my leading man!!  ;-)

Day 14 #photoadayMay…Grass, a Rainbow and the Silver Lining

I missed yesterdays “Photo A Day May” because it was so rainy and I didn’t want to take a gloomy picture of Day 14 “Grass”! So, I decided to wait until today since it is nice and pretty out. I was just reading butterflyofhappiness’ blog that I stumbled across today thanks to reading one of my favorite bloggers blog today(Eric at healthdemystified). The first thing that I see when I clicked on her blog is a picture of a Rainbow and I LOVE rainbows!! Rainbows remind us of God’s Promise…..Genesis 9:11-17. (Please check out her awesome post for today!!)

Yesterday was a trying day for me. I fell into a “I just want to curl up into my own cocoon and shut the world out” day! No motivation what so ever. I had decided at the end of last week that I would take a week off of blogging and just focus on trying to write my book that I have been working on and how do I start the week?!! In a funk of a mood. Maybe because the weather was so gloomy and my mood matched it, but I just wanted to stay in my room and I literally did not resurface until the lack there of sun went down. And then I was beating myself up for not sticking to the plan of working on my book. Let’s just say nothing got done yesterday.

Low and behold today…the sun is out and there is not a trace of rain and I was able to take my pic!! And in that pic there is a tiny yellow flower that caught my eye. That put a knowing smile on my face!! Just as I was composing this, I was thinking about the silver lining of it all….it’s okay to began again. We are blessed to see another day. It’s another chance to be all that we can be and continue to do exactly what we were placed here to do!! :-) Happy Tuesday!!

Hey all You Bloggers…Here’s to your Awesomeness!!

I began this blogging journey a little over 2 months ago and as I was telling a few other bloggers, what I had in mind to do with my blog is completely different from what it has turned into. Not a bad thing at all…I just let it flow and here are the results. I like to think that what I post is just all these random thoughts that come across my mind. I decided to be transparent, which was a big step for me because I am such a strong person and I am use to being the one that has to stay strong for others and be that shoulder, that helping hand, the one to wipe someone else tears, and the one to say “It’s okay…it’s going to be alright.” But, the moment I decide that sometimes I need those very things and it’s not a sign of weakness to say, “Hey, I need exactly what I give!”…..life took on a new meaning. Thus, the birth of Lovebugsworld! ;-)

With that being said, along this blogging journey, I have met some awesome bloggers and it still amazes me with all the wonderful things I read and come across. It just shows you how we’re all unified in a sense where we share that common thing….blogging, but yet are minds all are unique. Hence the topics we choose to share with the world and I love it!! And even though a lot of us are not being compensated monetarily, we are truly doing what we love!! We have discovered things about ourselves that we probably didn’t realize was there and if we did know, we have increased those things.

Blogging is so serious because we are checking emails in our sleep, approving comments and responding at the crack of dawn, we are thinking of things to write at the start of the day, in the middle of day and or night, and the list goes on. I am guilty and I dare not believe I am the only one…lol!! Blogging is a full-time job. Hey, it’s a job I actually don’t mind giving all my time to. ;-)

Thank you to the following Bloggers…you guys/gals rock!!!

dliteraryprescription.wordpress.com (my awesome husband)

wisdomistheprinciplething.wordpress.com (my awesome bestie)

ellecwolfe.com

healthdemystified.wordpress.com(Eric!!!!)

xlittlemsmentalcasex.wordpress.com(Tinisha!!)

livinginyourworld.com(my fav Top 5 Friday guy ;-))

inspiredthoughtinspiredaction.com

que274.wordpress.com

waitingforthekarmatruck.com

ispygod.net(my inspiration dosage)

plasticbagpoetry.wordpress.com

thefoolishtruth.com(my laugh factory)

misfit1976.wordpress.com

lindsaythomas20.wordpress.com

outsideair.wordpress.com

And here’s to the new blogs I have found over the last day or so….

peasandcougars.com(A sure laugh and awesome animation)

eyelaugh.wordpress.com(Another awesomely animated blog)

sandylikeabeach.wordpress.com

Here’s to our Love of Blogging!!!

~Lovebug :-)

I’m Still Here…

I’m Still Here

In the absence of my physical being

I’m Still Here

In the deafness of my tone

I’m Still Here

If the limelight of my stare is obsolete

I’m Still Here

If the curving of my grin is not found

I’m Still Here

If my fragrance no longer lingers the aroma

I’m Still Here

If my occupied place no longer is filled

I’m Still Here

If you reached a bit further and looked beyond the obvious

You’d realize…

I’m Still Here!